i walk in
i see you
i watch you
i scan you
i wait for you
i tickle you
i tease you
i search you
i breathe you
i talk

i smile
i touch your hair
you are the one
you are the one
who did this to me
you are my own
i show you
i feel you
i ask you
i don’t ask

i don’t want
i won’t ask you
i can’t tell you
i lie
i am crying hard
there was blood
no one told me
no one knew
my mother knows
i forget your name

i don’t think
i bury my head
i bury your head
i bury you
my fever
my skin
i cannot breathe
i cannot eat
i cannot walk
i am losing time

i am losing ground
i cannot stand it
i cry
i cry out
i bite your lip
i breathe your breath
i pulse
i pray
i pray aloud

i smell you on my skin
i say the word
i say your name
i cover you
i run from you
i sleep beside you
i smell you
on my clothes
i keep your clothes